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Look what I bought!!!?!?
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Anonymous asked: if i was a guy i'd want to give you the world.
That’s really sweet, however you could still be who you are and we could make the world better!? Keep talking to me :)
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Love this kid :)
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Theses stories will in-tale my first love, my only love, and also, lets call them the others.
A first love is never forgotten, a first kiss, that first special someone who could make you feel on top of the world and at the next minute make you bust into tears.
For someone to be so special that without being with them is unbearable.
To have a broken heart is hard to fix, to let them go is tourcher, to not see them anymore is fatal, almost anyway.
The things we do in the name of “love”.
Define love- ‘An intense feeling if deep affection, a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone.’
With that i can definitely say I’ve felt that, with him anyway, I will openly admit i did try taking my own life because he never felt the same as i, and i always knew that. To go each day without being mine took its tole, listing to music would make me combust, because of a simple lyric would remind me of him. I could never fathom why he never felt the same about me.
It wasn’t all bad, but at the time it was all i focused on. He made me feel the best i could ever feel, I have only ever gotten “the butterflies” from him he made me that nervous. I don’t think I’ve ever told him that, but he knows how special i know he is. You gave me the experience of love, and i will never forget it and will always treasure them. One event in particular, lets just say it involved a boat, being on the top deck with me cuddled into you, and me pulling out a symbol of my love for you, was the closest thing I’ve felt magic. I was so happy. If anything i just wish, that it will be the one thing you forever remember me by. Hopefully that and not the moment when i was cooking you chicken and i thought it was fish, Blonde moment.
The “Others”, this is also something i still can’t fathom, how theses “others” can share something rather special with someone and not get an emotional connection, every guy I’ve been with I’ve had an emotional connection with, even if it was just one night, we’ve shared something together, as one. In my head thats the closest thing two people can do to become one. A bond, defined “A force or feeling that unites people, a common interest or emotion.” As silly as that sounds.
Now generally with theses “others” it only gets one thing satisfied, of course the sexual urges. But after all thats well and truly over, to be left feeling the cold bitterness of feeling used & empty.
How can people base a friendship around sex? And not gain an emotional connection!? That is what baffles me. Its all fun and games when its just sex, but as soon as someone shows signs of something more, thats it, and they put an end to it all, a stop to all communication. Why, is what i want to know. Are they scared of commitment? Are they scared to have a connection with someone? Are the scared to show venerability? I need answers.
Why do i always feel like the villain, Like its my fault, but yet i always get the same bullshit excuse, “you’re a nice guy, BUT..“ No, don’t but me, you’re right i am a nice guy, a genuinely nice guy, that only wants to show commitment, love and affection, and ask for it in return. But nowadays it seems too much to ask.
Will i be chasing my tail, going round in circles forever.
Forehead scarification on the lovely Kate Beer.
WHAT ARE IN YOUR NOSTRILS? by that i mean the jewellery type? :)
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